Tuesday, June 28, 2011


i never thought this day would come, but i don't like my past haunting me and i really want a fresh start. click the link above

http://hotpinkboxers.wordpress.com

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i'm re-reading old posts and i think i want some of those in my life

so maybe i wont move and i'll just go round deleting old posts

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i'll delete old posts, but i don't think i'll be back.
found an even older (and even more embarrassing) blog of myself, and i'm so glad i didn't stay there. horrible thing's that i can't find the account that that blog's linked to.

Monday, June 27, 2011

previously unmentioned

No sign before
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THERE was nothing in her behaviour in school that pointed to the 10-year-old girl wanting to kill herself. In the weeks before the school holidays, she was her usual cheerful self. The top pupil and school prefect ran errands for teachers and helped her classmates in their school work. 'Does this look like a girl who harboured thoughts of suicide?' asked her principal.
("No sign before girl's suicide" Straits Times 23 Aug 2001)

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

daisy chains


there are always so many things i'd like to change about myself

but right now i'm glad for what the Lord has given to me and how i'm getting to know many people in my life better because all these wonderful people have taught me many things and are helping me grow in so many different yet fantastic ways :> i really hope that as the year passes our friendships don't fade away but instead all grow stronger

speaking of friendships which fade there are many of such in my life right now. in fact there is one which my mind has been stuck on for a really long time, which breaks my heart to reminisce because i think i was really stupid back then. i'm trying to cling on to them somehow because some of them people are extremely important to me, like that one friendship i keep thinking about... sometimes things get awkward with friends and such but there's always someway that you can help make your friendship better, like being brave and confronting the issue straight with your friend. that's what i learnt from one dear girl who salvaged our friendship from deep beneath because she was brave enough to bring up the awkward topic. i guess people always say that if you're meant to be with your friend he/she will always take the initiative to approach you and show care and concern blah blah but it's always good if we ourselves take the initiative to show this warmth. :)

i'm so glad that this very very relaxing holiday break has helped me grow closer to many people in my life. it's also helped me realize who i should be growing closer to and who i should not, so thank God. somehow i feel that my matured thinking has killed my childhood innocence and hence i'm always thinking too much, making certain friendships really difficult. i need to stop thinking so much and really just take the plunge because i really don't know what else can happen with our friendship unless i do :) i am in control!!!! (and yes God is too)

man for a sick person i'm really talking a lot at 11.30pm

so yes to wrap this short post up, thank you, every single one of you, for being friends with me, because though i may not always show it, i really appreciate you :) and drink heaps of water + get lots of rest, so that you don't catch stupid germs like me and fall sick!!!!

put God before all things

Why Make Time for God?

To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven. (Eccl 3:1)
According to the words of wise King Solomon, there is a time for everything: a time to study and a time to play, a time to learn worldly knowledge and a time to gain spiritual wisdom. But it is up to us to set out that time, to use our time wisely and devote part of it to God.
Imagine that, week in and week out, our days begin at 8 a.m. and end at 12 a.m., with no time to talk to God except for a few seconds before bed. What would our faith and our relationship with God be like? It would probably be weak, if not nonexistent. Like any other relationship, we need to spend time with God in order to develop a closer and more personal relationship with Him.

In addition, setting aside time for God allows us to keep sight of what is important—our ultimate destination of the heavenly kingdom. Our faith has a direct impact on whether or not we can enter heaven—and this is definitely worth making time for. Spending time with God not only impacts our ultimate goal, but it also makes a great difference in our daily lives. The following poem entitled "The Difference" illustrates how important it is for us to come into God's presence daily in order to gain strength and peace from Him. The busier we are and the larger our tasks, the more important it is to pray to the Lord.

The Difference

I got up early one morning,
And rushed through the day;
I had so much to accomplish,
That I didn't have time to pray.
Problems just tumbled about me,
And heavier came each task;
"Why doesn't God help me?" I wondered,
He answered, "You didn't ask."
I wanted to see joy and beauty,
But the day toiled on gray and bleak;
I wondered why God didn't show me,
He said, "But you didn't seek."
I tried to come into God's presence,
I tried every key in the lock;
God gently and lovingly chided,
"My child, you didn't knock."
I woke up early this morning,
And paused before starting the day;
I had so much to accomplish,
That I had to take time to pray.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

create in me a heart that is pure



Whenever I feel lonely, I’ll think of Jesus on the cross, for He bore the sins of the world all alone.
Whenever I am hurt emotionally, I’ll think of Jesus on the cross, for He endured many insults and said, “Father forgive them, for they do not know what they do.”
Whenever I am hurt physically, I’ll think of Jesus on the cross, for His whole body, from His head to His toes, was covered with deep open wounds, bruises and drenched with blood.
Whatever pains that I have to experience, I’ll remember to think of Jesus on the cross, because what He had gone through were far more painful and humiliating than all the pains that I had experienced, and all the pains that I will be experiencing, put together.

Our Lord Jesus is indeed our source of strength in all that we have to go through, and He definitely is our example in our life of faith."

taken from closerdaybyday


i'm glad i've been given a chance this holiday to really draw close to the Lord again and feel His wondrous love and grace. it pains me to reflect on how i have been the past 6 months, but i'm glad that i've been given a chance to rekindle my fire for Him once again, through my trip to UK because we got to visit a few other branches of our church there, and also through the annual bible seminar (my last, sadly). the members in those churches were really warm and hospitable, and that really touched me :) for bible sem, we really ensured that we used up our time wisely for prayers and to do our duties well, and it was quite edifying!

If we really love someone, we would want to spend more time talking to him/her, taking time to communicate our love.
If we say we love God, we would want to spend more time in prayer, talking to Him and worshipping Him.

i really feel different after this bible sem, and i guess it's because i've already been through theolo (so i made use of this camp better), and i'm glad. it's always difficult to maintain this post-camp spirit especially during the school term, but i pray that God will help us all keep this fire burning for Him. :-)

Jesus says in John 14:15 - “If you love me, keep My commandments.”

Our love, devotion and commitment to Christ are reflected by our obedience to Him. May God guide us to lead lives pleasing to Him.



this is one of the hymns we learnt during the camp, and it's my personal favourite because the lyrics are beautiful.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

ARENT YOU GLAD



END OF SEMESTER 1 WOOHOO CELEBRATE GOOD TIMES COME ON x

oui

recast three models as charlie's angels, bonus points for interesting backstories






john mayer is hot and makes great music

the header says it all

great is the Lord

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,
“The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you.”

Sunday, May 22, 2011

i have no alibi

school tomorrow but i'm already in total holiday mood. i would love to skip school anyone have free germs to spread around???

you wanna be drunk and fabulous???

some of the antm all star cast

DOMINIQUE REIGHARD


ISIS KING


KAYLA FERREL


LISA D'AMATO


SHANNON STEWARD


BOYS AND HAIR













respect for the mystic men

fallin like dominoes




FLAWLESS PRINCESS FALLS TO THE GROUND

HAHA DONT WE ALL FEEL A LITTLE BETTER NOW

disconfect





















some swedish house mafia for everyone. i love the beats.

Friday, May 20, 2011

inspiration//////////////////////









so pretty

i wanna go to school, but i dont wanna go to school

MAN CAN I JUST PON SCHOOL TOMORROW AND STAY UP ALL NIGHT WATCHING HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER PLEASEEEEE :>

skool lyfe sux big tiem

major buzzkill




fyi there's a topshop sale on NOW! i will be heading there pronto after open house prep ends tomorrow. really hope it ends early because i wanna go touch clothes *_* am very cashless but AM SO EXCITED!!! i love topshop :>

so guize let's go to the mall today

SO ON DOPE

i actually want to watch an episode of himym now

SOMEONE NEEDS TO SHOOT ME

IM GONNA LICK THE LIBERTY BELL


sorry it's 12.45am and im on a himym high 8-)


HAHAA THIS ONE WAS AN AWESOME EPISODE



^ UNDENIABLY MY FAVOURITE ^


#while your kids were waiting for you to finish one of them became an assasin and the other became a wizard












Katy: Hi, I’m Katy Perry and I’m gonna be on How I Met Your Mother this week.
Neil: Hi, I’m Neil Patrick Harris and I’m gonna be on Katy Perry this week.


HAHAHAHHAHA THE GIFS TOTALLY CRACK ME UP sorry if i killed your internet making them load. there are so many more i wanna spam tonight but i'll kill everyone so nah. watching old how i met your mother episodes in school has been making my days really awesome. feels like the burden i carry to school has lightened much significantly having such a great show to watch during breaks :-) WOOHOZOZO i swear people are going to start thinking im on dope every day in class. i'm always grinning at the screen or grinning to myself when i think about a funny moment in himym. doesn't help that the theme song always plays in my head nowadays.

i see so many things in my life now all with references to himym. it's creepy yet at the same time extremely cool. what uppppp :>


"So don’t make decisions then, don’t talk to people, don’t do ANYTHING. Just go to bed." - how i met your mother

YES AMANDA GO TO BED you are going to die tomorrow in school. wootz 1am 6am gonna wake up in the morning gotta get dressed gotta go downstairs~

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

and also

I WORE MY BROTHER'S JEANS TO SCHOOL TODAY AND THEY FELT SO GOOD!!!! THE COMFORT *_*

i wanna be a boy now haha nah kidding BUT YOU GET MY POINT

mercy






HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LOVE THIS ARTIST? HE IS BRILLIANT